Be Who You Are and Say What You Feel Because Those Who Mind Don't Matter and Those Who Matter Don't Mind

how many ppl can really do that?

instead of flattery and pretending?

how many ppl really mind yet they are still care about u?

there hv no certain rite?

no matter how..

friend in need is really always the friend indeed..

with juz a simple n single matter..

i can know how many friends indeed i hv..

the result freaked me out..

maybe, i m not a friend indeed to others though...

i m not good enough...

toodle-oo XO

blood..... i hate you

hate the smell of the blood..

hate the blood flowing out from my nasal to my throat..

hate the blood flowing out from my mouth....

it's disgusting when i saw the fresh reddish blood..

i feel scared.. afraid.. but without the reasons why

hate eating medicine for 10days..

hate to watch out for the clock to avoid the time over for nasal spray..

hate different types of spray i hv to use..

hate bring spray n medicine to school...

while i was typing blog juz now... the blooding dropping out.....

the scary fresh reddish blood..

i hurt the inner space of the nasal... (i think so)

i juz dun wan the blood dropping...

y.... y it is still bleeding?

B-L-O-O-D

Blood..

a very normal word to me right now..

for others : oh gosh! you are bleeding..

for me : ya meh? haiz... need to wipe if off again..

keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding...........................

everything is tasteless for me..

bitter, sweet, sour and spicy are juz the words of description..

every 2 to 3 days, i need to go back to hospital for appointment..

for the doctor to suck my blood out from the nose n nostril!

first of all.... the doctor will smile to me!

then! heheheh, he push the tube down the nostril through my nose!

godness gracious!

the latest way of abuse!

reluctantly going back for appointment... T.T

3days 2 night trip in hospital

at first,

i feel happy for operation becoz of the live after that is juz so longed!

however,

10.1x am, the first injection made the regret took over the happiness!

damn godness,

the first injection did not work out as the doctor said my vain is juz so narrow..

okie..

here, the second came!

without any warning, the needle was injected inside my left hand's vain! oucccccccchhhhh!!

the tear nearly streaming down..... ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

eiieiei? where is the first needle? when it was pulled out? i hav no idea as i was in my very own "wonder"land at the moment!

hoho.. second is not enuf!

10. 2x am, the third one!

the anesthetic!! oucccccccccccccchhhhhhhhhh! the live-taken injection!

i will never forget the feeling..

the solution will transfer from the back of left hand to the whole body... the solution is somehow cool... the muscles were cramping whenever the solution flew through

.. you hav no way to run... you hav no energy to move.. even a finger.. i was totally helpless! the tear cant even drop out!

when i sensed that the solution went through half of my body, i fell a deeeep sleep....

11.4x am..... my eyes opened.. but i cant move.. the only one can move was eyeballs!

i was keep on struggling... struggling for water.. my throat is aching! sore throat!!!!!!!

i needed water! water! water! i was groaning and crying.... but... no ppl wanna treat me... the only one who came to me was only a the male nurse ( the nurse who taking care of me from the start, quite fat.. quite ugly, but he is kind ♥ )

he told me: 小妹,你回去就可以喝水了...小妹，你等一下，很快很快...小妹，我打电话去催了。

he urged the ward nurses 3 times! so touching.. the nurse treated me very well *thumb up*

after the operation....

i was in the ward for so long...... only my bf was there with me.... and my mom with me at night..

so boring.. so so so boring... my days was made with comics, fiction and magazine.. laying on the bed... rolling my eyeballs... the hospital blocks the msn and pps..

still got lotz of time to capture... =.=

2+1 days trips - A life of blessed me

DAY 1

- reached Melaka

- checked in

the first day of my trip to melaka with my bf and his relatives! the whole day, we were relaxing in the hotel.. staying in the hotel and using all the facilities. it did not turn out as planned. it disappointed me initially as i really hoped to visit the St' Paul Church and the Wall *i dunno the name T.T*

v had been swimming for 1 hour and using the Sauna. How stupid i m after realising that the time when i was joining the class trip to PD, i had actually utilised the Steam Room instead of Sauna! haha! the actual Sauna is very hot with high temperature, yet the steam room is much more 'harmony'...

my bf is very 8 n 'many hands'.. he took our room key '1704' to test the Executive Club Facilities. at first, i juz feel like 'aiyo.. impossible la, our room is normal room, how could you join the Executive one?! wasting time' out of expected, the door open!!! EXECUTIVE CLUB using by EXECUTIVE CUSTOMER!!! how could the door opened??!!! Thanks God, the ppl gave us the wrong room from Normal to Executive! ** it's actually the same as the normal room in the facet of decoration n furniture. juz the floors of the room make it's special** haha~ Due to his busy-body-ness, v got free food n wain!

at night, v went to the Portuguese Village to enjoyed seafood ♥ my favorite!! but.. it's not as tasty as i expected again.. haiz haiz haiz... i tot the place is very nice yet romantic! but... the real one is the opposite one! godnesssss! not only that, there are many stalls and competing each other! all of them persuading us for visiting their stall! scary ~.~

btw... after a happy day... a small sad scenario, quarreling with my dear =( but, ended up with a sweet night la ^.<

Day 2

- st' paul church

- the Wall

1 hour b4 check out, v went to the Red House! but only for less than 1hour! =(

what make me sad is.. the parking fee is RM5 per entry!! godness! i juz went for less than 1 hour then it costs me rm5!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! walao-A, my heart nearly dropped out!

v hav been in the Jonker Walk after check out! 6 of us - 3 couple had been crunching for 60 chicken rice balls+5 yam rice balls.. it is totally a quirk! even the waitress got shock when taking order. how could 6 teenagers finish up 65 about 3cm diameter-sized rice balls???????? even me, i doubted tat too.. (initially, i told them 2 rice balls will do for me b4 taking order.. but.. my bf laughed me TT so sad...)

after all, v took around half an hours (i guess) to finish up about 30 rice balls! godness, stomach was complaining as all the balls rolling inside! all of us was hesitating for having another 1 rice ball! if v chose to leave the balls there, it's a wastage! (haha! wad to do? eat lo!) due to our not-to-give-up and not-to-lose spirits, v poured all the balls into our mouths! ended up, i ate the least.. only 6! the girls ate d around 7-9 balls and the most, my bf's cousin.. around 16-18balls! he is damn pro wei! 名副其实的饭桶 =.=

the best thing happen at night! hehehe! i stayed overnight at my bf's house! 3-first time happened in the same day! the first time i met his dad, the first time i met his granny, the first time i stayed overnight at his house! soooo sweet =D

his mom is so caring =) she knew that i m going for nose operation, she stopped the order of crabs and anything may harm me b4 dinner. she asked my bf to sleep in the guest room instead of his own room because of dust! btw, at the end of the dinner, i finished up almost the whole crab!

soon after, my bf bullied me! dun wanna let me eat with the reason of : "juz after dinner, how come u so fast hungry?!" hahaha~ i also dunno! i will get hungry faster at night! especially after a tired day! my bf treated me badly! juz gib me a cup of milo without any biscuit! =.= but the milo doesnot work for my stomach! luckily, auntie cook me a bowl of organic maggie mee at 11.xx pm! otherwise, i will have been starving the whole night! hope that my appetite will not freak auntie out ;'P

1 more to go!

hooray!

one more to go! one more to go!

go go go, a leh a leh a leh!

btw, i m nt really satisfied with exam!

i did the same n same n still the same mistake again again n again!

u can c how ATTENTIVE i am!

i alwis remind myself "dear ah dear, the interest loan a, even nt stated, u still need to write it as finance cost n accrual"

end up, hehehe~ still the same mistake!

wad the hell my brain is filled up with?!

*boy friend kut*

btw, i still managed to balance it!

give me 5! 555!

***i did many times before the exam, yet, cant balance the omg account! tat's y i m so happy when i get the balancing figure in the exam***

btw, nt a thing to be proud off, becoz, balance not equal to i m right!

after exam, my friend reminded me my mistake! *neh, the still-the-same mistake lo*

what to do? haiz.. i m nt attentive enuf.. n, the most brilliant of me, i jumped the addition information.. without hesitation! means, not even a look into it! i dun even know there is a SMALL line of sentence below it! i should bring n wear a magnifying glass in the exam hall next time~! hmm hmm hmm~ what to do, what to do~! it's a past!

i should now look forward instead of looking backward. so, do u!

*even then, i m still relaxing~! used up my brain juice today, rest je la!*

not enf tme to study liao.. haiz~!!!!