the very last post for the year.. i supposed!

MARRIAGE,

it's all about

affection, trust n contribution for the rest of life.

nevertheless,

the promise of two.

no matter how, no matter what.

keep it till the end of the life.

love u, my family.

bro n sis,

the new chapter of life is now started, enjoy it!

best wished from sis

the last post for this year, perhaps!

same as last year, fight for final instead of counting down.

i beg for a better year, God, plz.

juz get rid off my ambitious mindset.

i just want to be a normal but not noble person.

i am growing shorter and shorter with the loads from 'distinction'.

merely a body, hardly a soul, these few days.

i hope everything will be going smooth, nt hoping against hope, right?

btw, a bright day ahead!

bro is going to begin a new chapter of life tomolo.

bro, sorry for saying not attending ur very historical moment 8hours later.

i will be there, no worry XD

officially broke up ^^

hope that this break up can last forever. i m nt really feeling sad.. maybe a lil ><

break up for wad reason? a very lil small reason i supposed.

but, the biggest problem i think... is that.. v have been quarreling for few days.. not quarrel actually, is that i m the one nt 服气 in my heart... seems being insulted. seriously, i cant take it.

the 2nd problem, v have a deal, cannot angry or quarrel with each other if either one of us is sitting for exam... NO MATTER HOW... i know tat i m the one unreasonable smtm (smtm only a, does not mean i m wrong every time)... but v had a deal!

everyone tot he is sacrificing more than i am.. no doubt, it's yes! but, i hv sacrificed too. during his peak time, his exam time... i did tolerate for every of his unreasonableness-sssssss!! until i cant cope with it n cried after having phone with him... nw.. is my turn.. how come he had forgotten our promise? but... maybe i cant hope for the same thing!

whatever! my heart has been being poured by cold water.. no more passionate to care tis anymore! i can live better i guess..... maybe... a lil upside down....

ahhemmm... not selling hair care product here!

it's all for my own use!

i din realise that i have spent so much money in the hair care...

i gonna list out the price one by one!

let's start from the top of left-hand side

1. nexxen : rm35
2. elipse : 2boxes + 5 extra capsules : rm16.xx

3. sunsilk conditioners (straighten - grey & manageable - pink) : rm11.xx

4. essential essence treatment cream : rm12.88

5. sunsilk treatment cream : rm13.xx

6. pantene overnight cream : rm12.xx

7. pantene leave-on : rm6.xx

the bottom

8. 2 boxes of loreal paris treatment cream : rm17

approximately rm100 i hv spent...

maybe it's juz a small amount for others.

but,

for me, it's quite a lot...

so, i have decided not to buy anymore unless i use up all of these.

if you asked me, are these bringing good effect for ur hair?

hmm.. nt so sure..

tis is becoz i m using these at one time... wad i mean here is that i use the different products from time to time... becoz i dun wan my hair to get used to the hair product n thus stop reacting with the product. tis is what i read from the net.. for example, i used elipse today, nexxen for tomolo and pantene leave-on n over9 for the another day. whereas, those treatment cream i used them as often as conditioner except the loreal paris (becoz it is more expensive as compared to the others) how about the conditioners? erm.. i seldom use them unless i hv no time to do a proper treatment. conditioner is the best choice for leave n rinse. the salesman told me that the conditioner will juz leave a temporary effect but not in long run. so, i din really invest much effort n money on it!

from my personal experience, elipse is nice to use as it has nice fragrance and it doesnt leave my hair oily all the day. the next one will be the over-night cream from Pantene! it's nicethat it has a great effect on the second day... but, the effect gone once the hair is washed. for temporary effect soon after hair washing, Sunsilk treatment cream would be the best choice!

however, i havent got a nice cream to leave my hair a great effect in the long term.. where can i get tis kind of cream? hmmm.. a no-answer question. even someone told me, "the xxx is very very good oooo~~~" but, the price must be 3-digit amount. in addition, a product which is suitable for you might not hv the same effect for other as well. what a disappointment!

all in sudden, i browsed through a web today! self-made shampoo! it's actually semi-self-made! haha! it's juz requesting u to add in some ingredients! i did have a try on it! how amazing tis experience would be?

蛋白质洗发水

　　据护发专家说，含有40%到50%蛋白质的洗发水可以促进头发的弹性和光泽，并能修护干燥受损的头发。如果自己制作洗发水，就可以提高洗发水中蛋白质的含量。方法是：把鸡蛋的蛋白和蛋清分开，用打蛋器把蛋白打到起泡，然后加入约两次用量的市售洗发水搅拌均匀，把一半的蛋白洗发水倒在头发上。等5分钟后再洗掉；利用剩下的蛋黄按摩头皮和头发，等5分钟后再用温水洗净；最后用剩余的蛋白洗发水再洗一次，再用清水完全冲洗干净就行了。

( pick it from http://women.sohu.com/20041216/n223289762.shtml )

it's so easy to make n use! juz that it's smelly... when i was pouring the shampoo on my head, i got th feeling that i was cooking! how would it taste if i put my hair into an oven Xd seems tasty! after all steps, i had my very tasty hair! initially, it does not smell bad and it's quite nice to smell instead!perhaps, it has mixed up with shampoo.. however, as it was in the half way of drying, the smell of albumin coming out! yuck!!!!! i have to apply Elipse on my hair immediately!!!

i hv no idea whether i feel it mentally or it's real that the so called shampoo works well on the dark coloured hair, but i will continue using it for the coming week! only then i update my blog on the effect ♥

XOXO

亲爱的。

老公，诚实地答我。

或许，现在馋嘴的我，你会觉得可爱；做了你老婆后，你会不会觉得我失礼？

或许，现在爱撒娇的我，你会很喜爱；做了你老婆后，你会不会嫌我很烦？

或许，现在我所煮的东西不管多难吃，你都会喜欢；做了你老婆后，你会不会嫌弃？

或许，现在奔奔跳跳的我，你很喜欢；做了你老婆后，你会不会不再追了？

老公，要很诚实很诚实地答我~！

6th Anniversary, stay sweet ya ^^

y m i so free to be here as tomolo will be the first day of final? XD

juz wanna lock the feeling here~ dun wanan forget about the feeling~ love love love!

he said : yer~ tis pic so fake! T^T

hii, this is my lil beast <3

i will edit the pic soon after my finals!

28th March 2011

7hrs more then i can meet him up!!

so happy n excited as it has been half a year that v nvr met~

but... the oppo cost is tat : i will then miss my class!

ME class n MIS class!

it's nt a big deal to miss the MIS, but..

it's definitely an unwanted deal to miss ME >,<

miss pris, i beg u, juz do some revision, but nt exam format~~~!!! plz plz plz!

my lil boy does not know that i will be there as well~

unless, he view my blog!

but, i would be impossible as he does not like to view my blog n the time is so tight that he is not able to do so!

hehehe!

my turn's to surprise u!

rmb that last time he lied to me that he was still at saudi n will reach the next day..

but, when i was preparing to hit the hack... he was outside there with Secret Recipe!

however, his planning was suck becoz i got cha!

i could feel that something was not going as usual!

btw, he had tried his best to gib me a surprise! okie la! u worth a kiss~ muack~~~~

toodle-oo!

gonna sleep n wake up very early in the morning.. sigh.................

have a break, have a kitkat!

suddenly, it pops out in my mind!

ya! i need a break indeed!

im so sick and tired of assignmentssss n courseworkssss...

they are annoying!

it has been so many days burning the midnight oil~

if it's countable, i think it would be tons that have been used up!

I NEED A BREAK, I NEED A BREAK, I NEED A BREAK!

anyone would like to hv some pizza? >.<

i wan pizza desperately!

HAVE A BREAK, HAVE A PIZZA!

=.= so lame

good9,peeps!

XOXO

toodle-oo!

喷火！

真的是白痴！不想耕耘却想收获？！
世界上没有这么美的事!
自私到极点！
不明白为什么这种事都做得出来！
我们是你的佣人吗？
一而再，再而三！
发梦也未免太早了吧！
真的是都巴星！
阿娇二世！

还有一个更高手的！
竟然去配合！
好啊好啊！
继续放纵这阿娇二世吧！
但是，
当我做回相同的东西时，
你这高手DDY，
你就知道味道~
是吗？亲爱的高手！

*p/s 当你的心中再问，是不是xxx时，就证明你也有同感！哈哈！high 5!

Tsunami.... Japan

plz plz plz....
pray for the victims... they are jus so pity...
y the Tsunami n earthquake wanna hurt the citizen on the earth..
can they stop destroying?
there were lifessssss n livessssssssss there....
how can they be so cruel to life,
how can they simply take human life away?
i hate natural disaster..

is there application of FAIRNESS but NT MERELY A WORD?!

it's freaking, fucking, damning pissed off when i heard what tis kind of ppl complaining there!
is it this fella, XX, thinking tat XX is the only human?!
XX complaint for having so less of chance to xxxxxxx XXself!
yet, dun wanna putting much effort!
are u waiting for the benefit to drop from the sky?!!!!!
hoping for everyone to complete for u?
dun hope against hope! it would nvr be!
XX is tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo selfish!
do u ever think of others?!!!!!!!!!
nt the first time d! u r so irresponsible!
i hv been tolerate for so many times!

yet, there is alwis a kesian/stupid person to help n tolerate! definitely nt ME! dun ever dream of it!

argggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhh!

于心不忍。

每一次，每一次，每一次地宠你。
每一次，每一次，每一次地维护你。
却，
每一次，每一次，每一次地被别人当作坏人。

每一次，每一次，每一次地在你前面低头，
每一次，每一次，每一次地对你心存歉意时，
却，
每一次，每一次，每一次地被你的言语而愤怒。

可我，
每一次，每一次，每一次地想报复，
却
每一次，每一次，每一次地于心不忍。

i love u, boy

i miss my boy..
it's been few days that v dint have a proper talk..
he is rushing for his assignments..
a poor lil boy...
haiz...
wondering wad i can help to lessen his burden..
feel sad when i can do nothing for him..
wad i can do is juz, stop calling him, let him concentrate in his assignment..

hey, me! stop annoying! he is there struggling for our future!

my love, awesome!

my lil boy juz told me that he wants to buy me a iPad 2 <3

but, it's impossible. becoz it's freaking expensive!

i would rather buy a new laptop with multi function.

btw, i feel happy for hearing tat he is willing to buy me one.

even though i know it would nvr be..

but, it's sweet to know that ur bf sayang n pamper u as he alwis would.

it's touching, even a word.

i love my lil boy...

比fucker还fucker!

今天发生了很多让我超不爽的事。

别的只是点缀。

原来，这个所谓的朋友，这个人，一直以来都爱踩着人家上。

刚开始，我真的以为我的错觉。

但是，第三次了。他踩着我上。

第三次。。。你已经踩过线了。

你已经过了三次机会。我不会再原谅你。

你已经犯了我。

对她，我死心了！

原来，她真的非一般自私！

我一次又一次的劝自己不要多想。

但原来我真的没有错。

我真的很生气她！

完全不想和她做朋友！更不想对着她。

还有，请你不要把别人的好心当应份好吗？！！！！！！！！

my valentine 2011

my valentine's day..

as usual, receiving flowers n ferrero rocher.

what the difference is juz there was no longer roses but tulips instead.

i love tulips!

frankly, got a number of frenz jealous me for receiving flowers every year..

but,

they dunno,

i would prefer to be with him, rather than receiving flowers.

what to do, it is distant love!

i cant hope for more, he needs his studies n careers,

think positively, i will treasure him more as v cant really meet up everyday!

v have been together for so many years n i hv ald got used to it!

the feeling of being apart =( so bad

can i hv an affair in Malaysia? XP

Happy CNY

had a great yet boring day at my hometown yesterday!

i feel so angry for my grandma. yet, i cant voice it out..

she does bully my mum since my mum was born..

i am so wondering... what my mum had done rendering her to bully my mum?

becoz of she is having so many children n my mum is the neglected?

or,

becoz of my mum tolerate her all the time?

or,

becoz of my dad is poor n being looked down? (fur sure, tis is main part of the reason)

she is juz so bias n it does make me angry!

i have never hoped for love, fairness, even inheritance from her!

cant she just treat n respect my parents as human?

dun ever blame me for scolding her n looking her down!

she bullies my mum in front of me!

how can i tolerate?

my mum cant ever utter a word.

okie, then i do it! i dislike her top to toe sometimes!

tat's y i want to be competent n rich to lead my mum n dad a good live!

note : my parents are both neglected in their respective family.

hmm... stop the heartbreaking family matter!

hohoho.. now only i knew that, i hv a Japenese sis-in-law!

it's awesome!

she is so cute n talkative yet funny!

she is some kind of 大笑姑婆！

she said she will be coming to make sushi for us! haha!

ermermerm.. dunno when =P

i told her i dun wan the raw one!!!!

there are many choices in one's life. it's depends on the owner of life the way to choose it.

once the way is chosen, not to complain and not to looking backward, they are all sunk cost. u have no U-turn, instead turning out a better way than the current one. life itself is easy, juz the way u walked on it makes it turned out to be difficult. n, u, r the one non-stop complaining for all hell. but, try to cool down n think, is it really that hard? is it really that unfair for u? think twice as u r the one making it complicated. u r the one starts the game n u r the one who has chosen the way. u must therefore take what it makes u no matter how n no matter what. no one is born to walk.. no one is born to choose the right path, neither u nor me.

i m so down..

how good if my bf is now here with me but nt ignoring me when i m sick.

maybe, sending me a bread or maybe consoling me...

i m so tired n restless..

i hate falling sick..

i hate quarreling with bf when i m sick..

maybe, nt quarreling but juz ignoring.....

at least there is a talk for quarreling...

happy family ♥♥

the left hand sided bunny is from my bf's mum ♥

it's Bao Bao!

the right hand sided bunny is from my bf ♥

it's Bei Bei!

welcome to my room, Bao Bao!

the camera in between is from my bf ♥

the gift of the last year end!

gift-with-no-reason!

book-crunching!

can u c?

i m currently doing this kind of act!

nightmare!

i m tired of tat... plz stop it..

i have left less than 39hours to study...

i force myself not to think of those quarreling..

but i failed..

i am crying..

for a bastard!

all promises and dealings turn to be a hole all in a sudden!

i m suffering......... i m tired...

waiting for miracle =(

i need gut and time..

i dunno how to deal with inches2 Business Economics within 2 days?

18 chapters!

i reluctantly start it as i m bored for studying!

"hi, i m Libra"

白羊 ARIES : 04/19 --- 05/13

金牛 TAURUS : 05/14 --- 06/22

双子 GEMINI : 06/23 --- 07/21

巨蟹 CANCER : 07/22 --- 08/10

狮子 LEO : 08/11 --- 09/16

处女 VIRGO : 09/17 --- 10/31

天秤 LIBRA : 11/01 --- 11/23

天蝎 SCORPIO : 11/24 --- 11/29

蛇夫 OPHIUCHUS : 11/30 --- 12/17

射手 SAGITTARIUS : 12/18 --- 01/19

山羊 CAPRICORN : 01/20 --- 02/17

水瓶 AQUARIUS : 02/18 --- 03/12

双鱼 PISCES : 03/13 --- 04/18

not every single one of us could ever imagine of changing in horoscope.. isnt it?

i was freaked out as i m no longer a

SCORPIO

instead,

i m now reluctantly a

LIBRA.

it's hard for me to accept even though i has no choice.

i have been being used to it a Scorpio..

being a bad one as described in Scorpio Horo..

btw..

even there is a changes in Horo,

but i m still me,

isnt it?

=(

i wan my scorpio back!

one will only be treasuring when something is no longer belonged to u...

i m now knowing it well...

=( plz... stop it!

why must there natural incidents every way & day?

why God is so cruel to them or us?

there are recently many cases about flood or accidents.......

it's so so so scary...

life is just so "perishable"...

pissed off

why there are many jerks, hypocrisies around me?

they are just so annoying n hv pissed me off!

can they get lost?!!!

how only they can let me off?

Ma Ya

i m wondering, is it Ma Ya true?

i m quite afraid of it....

if it's true, what the point for me to study so hard?

if it's not... y there are many Act of God happening all around the world?

i m so looking forward to 12.12.2012..

i think about it every now and then!

i m bad =(

i had been treating him badly.. from my age of nearly 13-15

hmm..

worse than all those girls that he loved!

sometimes, i do think, whether i m the Mrs. Right for him?

Am i deserved for his love?

i dunno.. n dun want to know!

whether am i deserved or not, i m still loving him for this moment!

i hope that our love nvr fade.. last longer n longer!

I miss my yang =(

miss my babi pork chop in sudden =(

miss badly..

miss the day v were lingering in the dessert shop...

he was eating his herbal dessert,

feeding me once but no more after that..

y?

becoz i was just licking n sucking the sweet syrup n left him the bitter one =P

miss the day we were travelling to Melaka,

having fun there..

n..

the first time i stayed over his house..

*plz, dun think those bad side, his parents were there too*

the first time i revealed my "not-so-good" me to his mom..

i dun think his mom cares about that though!

miss ><

good9..

XOXO

anti-jerk

there is a jerk around me...

is definitely a jerk!

有事钟无艳，无事夏迎春

sigh....

Blog, the short form of Weblog, a personal online journey that is frequently updated for the consumption of the public... definition from a web =)

i have just asked one friend of mine,

y didnt u update ur blog *as seem i hv updated my blog =(*

he told me that "i wanted to write too, about yesterday event. but, it

s my fault, so, not good to blog it out"

hmmm.... i hesitate a wee..

maybe different person has their own style, but, for me,

blog, is a way to express urself no matter u r right or wrong..

it's not a space for other to judge me! isnt it?

if one's judging me through my blog, he or she is definitely not welcomed!

*no mean to offend ya =)*

Choco Jelly WA!

Choco Jelly!

flipping those pages in ur mind back to childhood??

nah nah~

i din...

feeling more like...

oh no.. so sweet-kind of junk!

my teeth will drop even faster after eating all =(

but, better than none rite? XD

P/S: the first reaction after i got tis is : God! Choco Jelly wa! still young meh!