不能磨灭的伤痕。

我哭了。
因为，我带着一辈子磨灭不掉的疤痕。
一辈子不能穿尝试。
一辈子都要担心。
一辈子都在意。

So far.. Regretting!

regret for not going UK to be with my boy, going thru his hardest time.
we were both believing that i could hv learnt new things, gain new experience and knowledge from my internship.
so far.. what i hv learnt were all general administration.
it doesnt mean i learn ntg. but.. it's juz totally different from what i had been expecting.
the reason i alwis got, "it's off peak, u came for the wrong timing".
extremely fine. im getting used to it!

what i dislike the most..
being neglected by the others.. but it's better than being 'watched' by the others.
i hardly suited myself in a strange and new environment.
everything i did seems like being criticized by my leader. Am i being too sensitive?
maybe, there are errors in those things i did.
my confidence lvl, drops. drastically.

i m comforting myself, nvm. juz stay in the office and wait for the allowance. even i hv learnt ntg.
despaired. depressed. sooooooooo miserable.
will tomorrow be better? sigh........................................................

Emotionally: I'm done, Mentally: I'm drained. Spiritually: I feel dead, Physically: I smile.