i juz asked my mom a question
"should i wear high heel to my grandpa's grave?
then tell him,
'grandpa, i hv grown up d!' "

"more" than max!

max is already bringing the mean of peek,
how come there is another peek after peek?
ACTUALLY,
it's rolling down from the peak!
im now in the situation "more" than "max"!

randoms...

it's funny!
hhahaha~
maybe i m the one full with hunger!

being cheated by Colouring treatment...
no effect 1~
my rm20 flies~

a sister who tries to be good to her brother, but in rewarded, a cool pouring-water

kinda pissed off!
everything i do to u,
u will juz turn it bad!
is it
it's the way u wan from me?

i respect u as my brother,
but,
u treat me more like a monster!

别再见!

u r the one ruins our friendship..
juz say "bye" soundlessly
bitch!

蠢人！

the most romantic guy i have ever met!

He,
is a 20-year-old F5 student.
used to be my classmate in secondary school
n
he used to be a gangster-liked student who dun like study,
is cyber-prone,
but,
dunno y,
he changed good halfway!
it's good news to me btw!

he shifted to my secondary school when i was in Form2
he was arranged into my class
he was cute n quiet
i m not dare to talk to him since he was juz so quiet
he has single-edged eyelid
thin n tall,
like bamboo.

soon,
dunno y again, he stopped study...
then he came back..
the school is like travel spot to him!

after tat,
v were getting close
and
he had fallen in love to me.
i admitted tat i got a bit feeling towards him,
but,
dun to i hv a bf,
so, juz forget it!

he was treating me well even he knew i hav bf...
he has no mean to give up!

both of us used to bet for the football match!
i think was Italy VS xxx...
i bet for Italy,
he bet for xxx
even though he knew he will have been lost!
haha~
wad was the betting chip?
10 sweets...
but,
he bought me 50 sweets without my acknowledgment after Italy won.
he gave it to my frenz n passed to me!
my frenz pouring out the sweets from the plastic bag
and counting in front of the teacher and classmates!
all chocolate sweet!
those i like~
i know some of u may think tat it's normal!
but, for me, he was juz so sweet!

he was cute as i mentioned above...
why?
everytime he saw me, he would definitely jump to me~
is cute~~~>.<

the most romantic is on Valentine's day!
it's lovely and loving!
after school,
someone told me tat got a ppl waiting for me outside school with flowers,
but i tot they were juz kidding and
then i went to library to study.
when i was concentrating on my book,
someone called with a boutique on hand!
is him!
he was holding the boutique in front of me!
but...
once i accepted,
i worried that he will have misunderstood..
i wan in sixth and seventh...
but...
he still pushing the flowers to me
and
said nvm...
it was embarrassing when all my librarian friends were coming around!
included my cousin!
i sure that my cousin will tell her parents!
aaaaaaaaaaaaa!
but it is sweet
when i know
he was holding the flowers and seeking for me the whole day b4 the class finished!

however,
i hav hurt him......
not accepting..
he was so angry with me....
but..
now,
i think..
he is getting better...

randomssss

today is totally in blue!
slept only for 3.x hours!
going to suicide!
but before suiciding,
can i find someone to punch?
to vent my anger inside my heart!
being a 'peace' ghost is better than a 'angry' ghost!

女人

女人，
最终都会是爱情里的受害者。。。

尤其是早已把另外一半设为终身的女人。。。
等到醒后才知道，
自己已一无所有。。。

i used to be love drunk,
i m now hangover,
i love you forever,
forever is over.......

这首歌就是反映了，
就那么的一句...
forever is over
就开始了女生的悲剧。。。。

DAY BREAKERS

i watched a nice movie juz now!
it was nice!
it talks about the life of vampires VS humans'
i m waiting the coming of Leap Year!
watch together with my bf!

xxxx

start my discussion now!
stay tuned...
>.<

v r juz like a pair of scissors

we r like a pair of scissors..
no matter how sharp u r,
i will still wanna meet u n poke u...
becoz v r best match to each other..
n
will nvr crossover...

we r like a pair of scissors..
no matter how harmful i m,
u will still wanna hug me n kiss me...
becoz v r the only one to each other..
n
will nvr departed...

we r juz like a pair of scissors..
r useless if being seperated..
r useful only when we tolerated

dear,
i am poisoned with ur love....
ur smile..
ur care,
urs everything....
even u may be hurting..
it's the reasons v cant live without each other...
becoz...
v r belonged to each other
juz like a pair of scissors....

stupid

i think my tt is quite useless..
how can u gib extra mark n sympathy to our exam paper?
even our marks are low,
u still cannot be like tat though.
it's not fair to other with real capability.
u r not qualified!

damn

i wont bother anything about
''not ur family's business''

fuck off!

i really angry to you
i m really stupid in front of u?
i really angry u............
i promise,
i wont sms n ans ur call for 2days!
at least!

a worse ME

my mind is out of control these few weeks...
dunno y..
feel being mistreat
feel stress
feel burdened
my mind is -ve than ever
not looking for sympathy
not looking for forgiveness
indeed,
apologizing...

i have hurt my frenz this few days...
becoz of my bad temper..
but..
it has the causes sometimes.

btw...
even that,
this cant be an excuse.

sorry to my friends...
i know it's like lack of keikhlasan..
but,
it's weird...
face2face

Lepak-ing after class!

can u guess wad is this?
can't?
okie,


here you come!
a closer look!
it's pic with all the ice-cream we had been eating this evening!

with all our saliva!
nice rite? haha!
we were 'playing' with the ice-creaming by forming shape!
haha!
who are we?
from the ice-cream,
left upper corner, ngee ming,
left bottom, mei ching
right upper corner, gee foo
middle, chia pei
n the most unique was belonged to ME!

ngee ming's ice-cream like those bitten by dog,
mine like those empty 偷工减料 by the stuff~
then
the nicest suppose to be
mei ching's or gee foo's?

wad do u think?huh?

we were lepak-ing after class, at McDonal...
but...
dunno which McD is tat..
is juz... near the Zoo Negara there!

ngee ming had formed many weird shape by licking the ice-cream!
one of the shape was juz like that toilet bow!
haha~
it was not my idea!
hahaa

my life without perservative-- facebook

facebook!
i hope to in,
but,
not to in!
hmmmmmm...
boring la!
my life without facebook is boring...
i tot i can satisfy my need by using my bf's facebook,
but,
it's not the case at all!
maybe i need to add my friend in..
but,
it seem like not good to my bf~
it's a kind of intruding@.@

later i saw some abnormal girl's msg or comment,
i will punch ppl!
haha~
but,
i think,
he wont!
i think i m the one who hs the greater opportunity to betray him instead!

dunno wad title

the following story is a bit like writing essay,
but,
it's actually my today's episode!

damn it!
early in the morning,
i was coming down from my bed..
it's another morning class!
(i was pissed off for being arranged in morning class)
i tot my class was start at 8.30am.
my frnez wihh hv reached at 7.45am.
so,
i managed to wake up at 7.30am.
15min for bath, brush n a cup of Anlene!
but,
once i was drinking a cup of plain water
(my habit : drink a cup of water soon after waking up)
i saw that a car was parked in front my gate!
n the engine sound was juz so familiar!
hmm,
it was gee foo outside!
mi gosh!
they had arrived!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i was still in nightgown!
without a second,
i headed to my bathroom n had a very fast n soap-less bath n brush!
it's juz a yuckie!
but, wad to do?

after i changed my clothes,
hmm...
''where is my rubber band?''
damn it,
inside the toilet!!!!
i quickly went to the toilet for it!
???????????????????

will be continue, let me take a nap!
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

back!

can u imagine wad was going on in the toilet??
the floor was slippery!
i could not even stand still
n
nex second,
pong pong pong!
i fall on the toilet floor!
oh mi gosh!
my ass was darned pain!
it's like twisted my asss!
hohoho,
my ass will become flatter tis time!
but,
i hav to get up as prompt,
because they were stll waiting!
the moment when i stood up,
another damn bloody pain from my leg!

hmmmmmmmmmmmm...
my mouth was ''singing with 三字经''
on my way to school!!

my dream baby

she? he?
wadever lah!
so cuteeeeeeeeeeeee~~

after work!

i am a very hardworking
but useless F2 tuition teacher..
i try hard to teach them, guide them, and even teach them overtime....
but
they seem like...
"i dun care"
some even rude to me!
maybe,
it's the communication problems
n
i am a bad teacher..

sometimes, i hav the intention to quit!
let those more expert to teach them
no need a useless me to ruin their study...
but..
i m not dare to voice out to my superior......
i cant giv up easily!!!!!!!!!!

they are devil actually..
but...
a very cute devil!
they are juz like me!
i was one of them when i was in F2!

a very bad teacher...
hmm..
am i?

going to deactivate the facebook soon.......
tiring..............

废话篇

古人说，
早起的鸟儿有虫吃。
假的！假的！假的！
我非常不赞同！
一千一万个不赞同！
如果不赞同的人，我问你，
早起的鸟儿就会有虫吃，
那早起的虫儿不就是被鸟吃吗？
所以早起就是不好！
如果你还不赞成，
那，
鸟儿吃的虫是哪儿来？
不就是更早起的鸟儿掉的嘛！
所以说，
早起床就是不好！
早起床上课去更是弊多于利！

我很废哦？
没办法，
今天太早起~
不够睡,
难免会不爽~

总的来说,
我讨厌早课！

my noob noob

his face looks noob!
haha~
tis noob is my boy friend!
the Dr.'s comment is juz so hilarious~!
''he clearly enjoyed studying Physics and was a talented experimenter.''
didn't he know tat,
he was sms-ing with me during his class?
haha!
Telented Experimenter?
haha!
juz luck he has~
*YAWN*

12-hour-on call??? no la, juz WORK

this sem is a very darned busy and hectic sem!
i cant even breathe!
i hv been doing coursework for almost 11hour,
then taught tuition,
then back home and continue my work for another 3hours.
damn the coursework!

i promise to get rid of my bad -- harsh words!
back to be the used-to-be lady!
but,
i sure someone will say,
''when u hav been being a lady?''

Feeling good, nice n GREAT

blood blood blood~
i hv too much of it!
hehe~
donated them to those who need them!
it's really an awesome experience!
let me start to tell u about my day!

i woke up at 8.45am today to prepare to go to coll,
as usual,
i did drink a cup of 'anelene' milk b4 i went school
i dunno how to spell it!

eng test was given by the teacher,
active to passive
then error in passage.
it's quite hard though!

after the class,
all of a sudden,
my friend invited me to donate blood!
i was shocked!
becoz they din even mention yesterday!
maybe,
donation juz came into their mind without a second!
hmm,
they asked me whether to join their 'trip'.
erm...
i was hesitating...
becoz,
i need time to digest!
btw,
i went to the venue with them even though i had no idea what to do!@.@
they, donator,
kar nee, pui yee, sze yen
give them a big round of applause!
the 3 heroines
with
they, audiences,
sheera, yoke teng, yun ru
and
me,
was on our way heading to the holistic yet scary destination.
however,
i was still in sixth and seventh...
''wuwuuwuwuw...
T.T
what to do?
im scared''
the needle, the blood, the little blood pipe
(i dunno how exactly it call, but it's used to transfer our blood)
are juz so scary!!!!!!!!!!!!
~~thinking, thinking and also thinking~~

lastly,
it was juz a step in front of the door...
the 3 heroines were handing they bags to the reception counter!
n
the worker there was about to put their bags!!!!!!!!!!!
I HAD TAKEN ONE STEP FORWARDS
" I WANNA DONATE BLOOD TOO "
where the hell my courages from??!!!
i also dunno!
i wad thinking bout
'juz a few mins, my blood will be in others' body'
'juz pain for few minutes, i can help a person'
'juz lees than 1hour, i can save a person who are now suffering from illness'
'juz a few mins, juz a few mins, you can, YOU CAN'

first of all,
they need to know my weight,
hmmm..
dun worry,
i will sure pass the weight test!
with ""flying colour""
rm50 with rm1!
surprisingly,
it's rm50 with rm4 changes!
i was in darned happiness!
i kurus d!

the blood test session was fast and smooth!
no cry,
no pain,
no screaming!
juz a little naughty ant bite!

i am A type,
i knew myself is A+
but,
they said they will still check it!

not many ppl sitting inside the hall,
karnee n i found 2 seats without moment!

i saw the nurse cucuk-ing my frenz' hand...
oh my gosh!
it seemed bloody pain!
hmmm...
a bit regret!
but,
ntg can do!
juz endure n go ahead
my turn ti be injected!
i dunno wad the injection was,
but,
i know it's juz another ant bite!
now,
tis was the climax~
the needle is sharp and with a bigger diameter than usual
was coming to me!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
i did not dare to see!
i juz turned around my head n closed my eyes tightly!
''eiei, something in my hand''
miraculously,
no feeling at all!
not even an ant bite!
phewwwwwwwww,
relieved!
i did not dare to move my hand becoz someone told me that,
if i move vigorously o shake my had,
the needles will break into half!
then i will be in trouble!

i kept kopek-kopek with my frenz,
n, half hour was gone coupled up with 350ml of my precious blood!
it was time to take the needle out!
i tot tis is the most painful session,
but,
isnt that case!
i din even realise the needle was being taken out!
when the nurse cover the wound with the cotton,
only i knew that the needle had already bye-bye!

after all,
it's really a great experience to me,
feeling happy n proud of myself!
you will nvr know the feeling
unless u try it!

ENG NICK name!

today,
my friend all talk bout eng name.
i told them i hv already an eng nick name!
but..
i was not willing to tell!
becoz,
the name given by my mom is weird!
i think it's weird.
n
not suit to me!
==

Helo, my name is Maydeling!

c,
weird right?

ouccccccccchhhhhhh!!
i was bitten!
by a blood-drinker!
i hate u!

today's recipe is loads!

today's recipe
=
anger+sinis+sad+desperate
=
today's Liyean

maybe,
i am too care about the details
n
even observe everyone with magnify glasses!
i can know what they think,
how they behave,
n
how they treat ppl.
maybe,
i will add in some of my opinions..
but,
most of the time,
it's accurate..

it make me sad...
maybe,
i will become more happy
if i hv no magnifying glass in my eyes.
i will become more happy
if i din care bout the word 'fairness'...
i will become more happy
if i cant c ppl's weakness...
i will become more happy...
if i din care bout those things happen around
if.......................
there is no 'if' in this world,
rite?
juz 'was' is there waiting to render u upsad!!

maybe,
i should juz keep quiet
n
stay aside
doing my own part...
not to c n care anyone and everything.

rm30!
is an huge amount!
with sweat and blood a!
(in Chinese)
haha~ today i suppose to teach fro 1 hour,
but my students told me their exam is until chap x that i havnt covered!
so... terpaksalah, i hav to teach them..
i hav exam tomolo!
TT
but..
when i saw them, it's like..
okie la okie la!
no OT!
haha
i was willing to teach!
they look innocent!
hmm... nvm la!

dear mr.wong!
i wan OT!
jkjk!

taoday's predicament!

today,
the results were released.
i think all of my blog reader knew tat after reading the previous!
wad is the predicament?
when my friend told me they had failed their course.
i am sad when i heard that............
at the same time..
i felt awkward to tell them.
becoz i worried they would think i am showing off...
haiz..........
dunno how to react to those congratulated me and those told me their results!
TT

天才论

you r juz an idiot!
sorry,
by the other way,
u r juz so smart!

pretending dunno everything,
but,
u r the one know the most!

dun think about what other can do for u!
instead,
think bout wad u hav done for the others!

My frienz...CP

she is juz so sick...
n
poor....
it's already 5th day.

hope she will getting better soon!

today's special

nice huh?

for me, it's yup!
it is, a big improvement of my eng.
and a recognition from my college..

but..
do u know tat, the stone is stil hanging my heart?
it's still here!
not yet being got rid!

continue later!
take a nap!
beh tahan!

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

i m back!
y did say so?
becoz,
it's juz beginning of my nightmare!
it's juz a illusion?
once i opened it,
it's juz
'haha! u hv been being fooled'
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!

n,
the other way round,
i need to maintain it!!!
how to maitain?
my eng is juz 'good...........................................
+luck'
not good alone!!!

it's another new 'mother' of stress!!!

TESTING!

testing,
testing,

123..!!
oh yes! i can use those words other than those in the blog!

half-way of reading Tamadun Islam

it's now
12.15am.
another 8 hours or --/++,
the result will be announced i guess!
i m sure that some of the
ladies and gentlemen are worrying!
i m not one of them becoz i am Zen-ing!
but, will join them soon!!!!
hmm,
one of the gentleman, mr. ling,
was bombarding me with sms n calls!
he is toooo apprehensive
about result n coursework!
btw, he is cute.

i wonder how i look like with tis hair style..
n
which style i suit the most?

wad the heck!
anger blast my mind
RIGHT NOW!

Exchanging Secret!

hmm..
it's a little good to exchange my secrets with my guy frienz..
*guy and gay is juz the same rite?
haha~
he is a kinda perverted
*jkjk*
but friendly n nice!
it's the first time i exchange my secrets with a ppl tat i have met for only 9 months i think!
he is my best lil buddy!
i know the unexposed facet of HIM!
at the same time,
he knows my unrevealed story, TOOO!
i hope our friendship will last longer!
Thanks, peep!
;p

an ancient paper!

recently,
i m doing a title of 'tamadun china'
it's bloody hard to find more bout them!
especially in malays term!
how good if i can write it in chinese or eng!
i found few websites that are very good web engine!
http://translate.google.cn/translate_s?hl=zh-CN&clss=&q=&tl=en&tq=&sl=zh-CN

http://zhidao.baidu.com/question
http://www.scribd.com/doc

they are so helpful in searching info!

nagging!

everything is juz in a mess!
my PC, my cafe world, my history of com, my bookmark!
arghhh..
feel like the hell is here ready for me!

i stil have many things and jobs to go!
i hate short sem!
it's like a damn hell!

assignment day

doing my assignment~♥♥
hmm.......
but.........
i dunno how to do yet!
i have out of ideas!
need help!
having break now.
will hv to start soon after!

today's bam bam booom!!!

bam bam boom!
i am so angry today...........
haiz....
juz a sentence...
i feel tat
i have became a stupid...........
'i cant get more,it's hard'
then.. no need to find more info d..
then...
what is the value to me to find for 2hours?
does it mean tat i have to give up even with ntg more info?
then how bout our project?
i am putting much effort inside it...
today's lecture,
OHR,
mr.cheng was telling me the ugly of grouping...
sometimes,
i prefer to be alone.
haiz.........

getting bored for anything happened around me!

my coursework, tutorial, n everything that spinning around me!
even the singing of the birds annoyed me much!
no thanks to my bad mood.

i m definitely get irritated or frustrated easily even by a small matter!
moreover... a really really troublesome matter!
i am really a short- n hot- temper youngster!
but wad to do?
it's actually a motivation (positive aspect)
but,
sometimes, it's juz the other way round!

i have been falling in love with classic songs..
i love classics song darn much!
dont u think it's the precious of music?
i m currently indulging in
Time For Miracle -- Adam Lambert
&
Fireflies -- Owl City
both of these songs are juz so warm!

random!

surprises for today!

damn it!
the format of the Eng report is not the same with wad i thought!
tat stupid teacher kept those info after v have started doing research!
but..
the class was over faster than usual!
beczuse all of us were busy finding info for our ENG! TT
2000 words report!

toodles-oo!
i am going to discuss my Tamadun Islam!

Life's not always fair. Sometimes you can get a splinter even sliding down a rainbow.

i love the title above...

Life's not always fair. Sometimes you can get a splinter even sliding down a rainbow.
by Cherralea Morgen

i dunno who she is..
but i know she is brilliant..
i totally agree with her!
there is no such a word 'fairness' in tis world..
i have to say 'bye' to my dearest used-to-be...


u were juz a nerd!

boring days, busy weeks n hectic sem

coursework is juz a persistently urge that will be killing me at last...
i cant hold for my breath right now!

tiring...
boring...
sleepy...

juz back from teaching...
am i suppose to give up?
haiz....
a hard decision..
i need money...
desperately...
i need money $$$!!!!

but
i hope they will get a better result......