alone

not going anywhere...
not doing anything..
juz concentrating on my cutie blogiie during my break time in school..

wad i would like to express next?
hmm...
my '-ship -ship -ship'

F-ship!
wad is it?
hmm...
i am going to start with friendship...
Friendship..
some of those is quite close with me even though v aren't contact every now n then
it's memorable when v recontact though!
but...
some..
is juz like be with me
but...
isn't that close actually..
juz like..
maybe i m not a good friend to be with.

family-ship...
it's alwis close to me..
feel happy to be with.
feel relieve when gettiing along..
but..
sometimes,
v r frustrated..
but...
v r still close to each other.
due to
knowing each other well..
v can't choose in which family v want to be.
but, v can choose in what family v can be!
happy? harmony?
it's all up to u!

however, the friendship...
is juz on the other hand...
we can choose whom can be with.
so,
no need to be upset even though they r so far away!

Bye bye chinese new year!

my mind cant concentrate
damn it
i found myself a bad reason: becoz of CNY!
but...after 11:59...
no more reason for me to procrastinate everything...
so,
i have to gambateh!

Fuckie!

this is the feeling i would like to express now!
i was on my way to go for teaching yesterday!
while my mom drove to a road gap(trying to cross the road)
a car was in front of us!
it's normal...
but,
this damn fucking driver,
was on the fence of 'driving out' 'not driving out'
okie,
when he decided to across the road,
my mom was following behind.
when my mama was about to press the oil petal,
tat funkie stopped suddenly!

my little red (my car) kissed tat fuckie' little white' (mivy) !
it was juz a slightly kiss!
not a French type!
next,
tat fuckie stopped his car aside n came out from his car!
a very short guy,
pink shirt with a west outside.
a knee-length short.
wad the damn funny thing was,
he was crossing his hand n looked at my mom n me
and
said 'u hit my car'
omg!!!!!!!!!!!
his voice told me tat he is totally a "S"!
S - means 'not straight'....
think it urself!
his act was damn nauseant!

what the heck,
i should have told my mother not to stop!
i gave myself a big slap!

i was about to go for teaching since 5min left to center!
but.. i was late at the end!
due to that fuckie!

wad a damn fuckie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after class,
my mom told me tat
the fuckie wanna hav a car colour spraying.
together with the side door!
i started to think,
it's he stopped purposely?!
in order to have a victim to pay for him?!
wad the!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

randomsssss

i am staring at u!

martyrdom of juicer TT

haiz.............
every electronic appliance will been shorten their life span through my hand...
pray for my juicer.
aged 15++...
it's so pity..
my mom will kill me sooner n later.

everything was juz fine today....

i broke the stage phobia!
it's actually not that serious!
hehe~
but, i dared to talk in front on my classmate without any draft!
it's already a big step to my success!
although my eng is like 'klek klek'...
i feel HAPPY though!
^.^
*wink*

black out!

what va sad case!
i have been wasting my time chit-chatting with my neighbor without doing anyhing!
due to our beloved Tenaga National!
my house has been blacked out for 1.5hours++
what the heck!
my homework not yet done!
bitch!
i m tired!
sorry for those improper words here.
i really cant stand for it n need to voice it out!

toodle-oo!
good 9 my blog.

today...bad luck...

when i was going to toilet,
i saw a guy came out from the female washroom..
at first,
i have no feeling...
because i tot the male toilet was busy
n
he was forced to use it..
but...
what i noticed was tat the male toilet was empty.
then wad for he was entering female's?
it's weird right?
even though he is the cleaning worker of my school,
but,
he has no right to enter female's!
plus
he was not wearing my school uniform..
n..
he din zipped up his jeans!
his underwear was red colour!
wakakaaa!

when i was going to enter the toilet,
he was juz standing there without the intention to walk away..
he was staring at me..
it's somehow of scary..
so...
i was juz pretending to find my friends
then
turned n RAN!

randomssssssssss

many people said that
i m such a pessimist...
alwis with those negative thinking.

actually,
it's juz they're over-optimistic..
i will alwis gear up myself to be in a hard circumstance!
at least,
when there is something happens,
i will not get confused.
isnt' it good?

toodle-oo!
i love u

i have loads of feelings to be expressed right now..
anger..
depression...
they are hunting my mind...
it suffers me a lot....
not happy...

now i know the true meaning of 大难临头,各自飞...
n
i need to 'wake up' from now that
there is no such word 'fairness' in the world..
perhaps,
it can be there,
but,
for sure,
it's not with my world..
i hold for it when i started to think..
but...
now only i realised, it's wrong.
perhaps,
it's my individual/ own thought!
wad so v call it in chinese?
一厢情愿...
i need to wake up before i fall...
i need to rethink of the worthiness to help the others..
they will nvr appreciate..
how i know that?
when there is a trouble..

many ppl say that,
v need not to be rewarded by helping each other,
but,
do they realize
they are actually doing not the same thing?
ya,
it's true when u r helping ppl without thinking the matter of reward..
but,
when u need help but no one there to be ready for u n to be ignored,
u will actually get hurt..
it's much the same way you are waiting to be 'rewarded' but only in different way............

now i realised that...
those '-ship -ship -ship' in my world are't long-lasting..
except for the love from my lover n family..

Ring Ring day - from..'BoRing'

it's boring!
waiting for my brother's home-coming!
what he have bought for me?
nononono!
the ques should be,
what my sis-in-law have bought for me!
he will never ever have an idea on what his cute little sister likes!

what the heck!

again....
i forgot my password since i have cleared all my cookies..
no records are in the searching box..
tat's y...
i have been trying hard to remember my password...
but..
it seem to be fail..
i have the mood of writing more initially,
but now
all gone!

nothing-special day!

like usual,
it's a another boring day...
wad is special than othr day is juz...
i twisted my waist!
it's darned pain!
aching!
argggghhhhhh....

hmh...
wad plan is waiting me?
haiz....
my F1 n F2 tuition notes...
i am going to start my work on mon...
god bless me....

forgotten!

oh ya,
b4 i go,
i forgot to tell,
i have started a cafe,
so-called 'Couple's Cafe'
in my dear cafe world~ haha!
for u,
it's meaningless,
it is meaningful though!

now,
i really got to go..
otherwise,
get punched!

a last long sigh....HAIZ

after reading ppl's blogs,
i am somehow wondering,
how can their eng are darned perfect.
how can?
haiz...........
tis has been a long-lasting sigh from F1...
a year when i realized the important of ENGLISH..

it's juz a random web log..
haha!

i'm going to gamble later on.

toodle-oo!

how was my CNY going?

i back kampung, Slim River to pass my CNY!

wad a boring new year!
but,
the happiest thing for CNY is---
my kampung has wireless!
wad a pleasure!
i can on9..
although it's quite slow..
better than ntg, rite?


年三十晚 i was playing with all these babies the whole night!
my dearest cousins were not going back at the night!
poor me...
So.. no ppl chatted with me...
wad i did is taking care of all these babies...

• what are they doing when the other are playing?
• do they get hurt??
• are they going far?
• do they approach the drain?

these are wad i was concerning!
it was tiring!
especially for those hyperactive babies!

the baby who is the most hyperactive among my cousins!
he is very bloody naughty!

he is the one who dares to disobey me!
wad i asked him no to do,
he will do it completely!

he is the one who has guts to play the burned silver papers and candles during CNY!
wad a naughty baby!
my cousin told me tat he is a 七月十四 baby.
he is much more naughty than usual babies!

the night of 13th jan, all the kids(included babies) were gambling until the mid9!
p/s: baby = under 7years old in my definition

it's chu 1!
my grandma was distributing her angpua to all her cucu!
c,
how happy she was!
becoz her purse was lighter after all!
haha!

the photo above is showing the spirit pf "ONE MALAYSIA"
wad do i say so?
haha! they are Malays twin!
cute right?
they came form KL purposely to join us for CNY!
how good they are!
they were wearing cheongsam summore!
they are definitely cute!
after their coming,
they had became the spot of the day!
as what my boy friend has said,
the big eyes make them look cute!

chu 1 was coupled with valentine...
it's damn....
i cant pass it with my boy friend...
i was passing it with all the babies n adults!
however,
i do had fun with my big family...
v had a BBQ!they were eager to eat the chicken wings!
are those chicken wings delicious?
i m not sure,
bucoz i have only eaten half of a chicken wing!
becoz the one i ate was only half grilled!

the chicken wings were waiting to be eaten!

the chicken was juz so hot,
so,
my cousin need to fan it!
otherwise,
she will get sicked!

this is the food i ate the whole night since i x ate those chicken wings!

v gambled again til late9!
bt... i lost rm10...TT....
but,
rm10 for whole night laughter,
it's worth by the way!

chu 2: finally, i back home!

kemas-ing my room!

it's never a good idea to hav a bf
who alwis like to buy this n that for his gf!!!!!
arggggggggggghhhhhhhhh!

he bought me many things render me restless when cleaning my room!
i am not showing off,
instead,
it is really beh tahan a!
i alwis kena marah by my dearest mama
for the sake of buying me many many things by that fellow!
TT
innocence!
i hv already asked him not to buy liao~
y my mama stil scold me?
complaining!
but
it's quite sweet when he buy me those things that can show me his caring!
n
what he bought were totally my size n make me up nicer!
except SHOES!
alwis the wrong size~
stupid!

but...
it's somehow a little bit angry..
it isnt his money wad!
n
it's better to save his money for his own use in the UK!
but
he will nvr ever listen to me!
after some nagging,
yes,
he will stop buying,
but
he will start buuying
soon after!
gek sei me!

他的话....

不要着灯 能否先跟我摸黑 吻一吻
如果我 露出了真身 可会被抱紧
惊破坏气氛 谁都不知我心底 有多暗
如本性 是这么低等 怎跟你相衬
情人如若很好奇 要有被我吓怕的准备
试问谁可 洁白无比
如何承受这好奇 答案大概似剃刀锋利
愿赤裸相对时 能够不伤你

当你未放心 或者先不要走得这么近
如果我露出斑点满身 可马上转身
早这样降生 如基因可以分解再装嵌
重组我 什么都不要紧 假使你兴奋
情人如若很好奇 要有被我吓怕的准备
试问谁可 洁白无比
如何承受这好奇 答案大概似剃刀锋利
但你知一个人 谁没有隐秘
几双手 几双腿 方会令你喜欢我
顺利无阻
你爱我 别管我 几双耳朵
共我放心探戈
情人如若很好奇 要有被我吓怕的准备
试问谁可 洁白无比
如何承受这好奇 你有没有爱我的准备
若你喜欢怪人
其实我很美

也许我不是最好的,但我始终都这样地爱着你...不找你,不代表我不爱你了,或爱你少一些了..只是因为我害怕...我想了很多..遥远的距离,让你很累了吧?我知道...你爱问分开了,我还会不会对你好,我的回答总是不会,因为我怕你真的会离开...事实是我还会一样地爱你...我没有任何的筹码了..爱,要没保留地爱..如果很累,告诉我...因为即使你要分开,我也会继续对你好..别急着回答,因为路还很长,终点还很遥远..

好好地,慢慢地想..远距离的恋爱,你真的有心理准备了吗?不一般的感情路,总是很曲折,这是你要的吗?不管你的决定是如何,我会继续对你好,所以别怕..

actually i do not really understand what the meaning of this song~
but
the part behind there,
(written by that fellow-my ex)
quite touching la..
but
it is juz 过眼云烟!
after i accept him back,
the problemS arise again~
so,
on the way thinking..
should i accept him?
hmmmmm......
let me think about it...

a rest moment during cleaning my messy room

i am freaking in writing blog~
everything i do,
i will definitely think of my lovely blog
n
capture down the environment that i am involved in

haha~
i am cleaning my room now!
i will upload my messy room soon after!
wait ya~
my lovely blog!

.. mauck ..

新年前的奋斗!!!!!!!!

一年一度的新年又来了！
（好像在写作文）

today,
like previous year,
my bro n sis drove me to TESCO EXTRA again...
haiz!
lack of creativity!
sienz!

but,
wad's the difference?
not that meriah like previous year!
maybe still early
still have 10 days to go for chinese new year!
haiz.......

i dun wan to back kampung!!
aaaaaaaaa!!!!!!
hatred!
no wireless
no P1 Wimax
no shopping complex
no fun at all~ @.@

what there have?
mosquito...
hens...
dogs....
n...
ho weather!

but,
it is good to have a gathering!

my lovely n loving blog! Muuuuack

finally,
finish editing my new layout of my lovely blog!

but,
what i cant edit is the background of the blog!
i hope it is black color with pinky words!

however,
i hv tried my best!
nice right?
(okie okie la)
dun be hypercritical plz!

for a new learner,
i rate myself, 99%!
the other 1% is for the purpose of improvement!
hehehe!
tak tau malu aku!