the old me returns!

hate the feeling of scare before exam..

crying for the exam..

over-care about the marks,

afraid of lower marks!!!!!

all these!!!

the COWARD me!

i hate tis!

hate this!!!!!!

juz dun wan to bother again..

can i?!!! arghhhh!!!

LOVE - the matter of two - U n ME

ME n HE

driving down along the road...

do u

wan to be stable?

*holding with both hands..*
OR

wan to be a high risker?

*try it up with only a single hand!*

LOVE

is juz the same..

by holding hands,

it will be a secure way down to future...

or else,

will juz put the love on the peek of the mountain..

will rolling down some day sooner or later...

this is not so called, LOVE

in lieu,

endless of selfishness..

after all,

wad i m trying to express?

dear S.Y.L,

i love u so much even though i am alwis bad to u..

u r alwis the single hand awaiting for my warm-less hand

without a single word..

thanks so much for everything u hv been giving me...

*even though ur dishes were yucky*

but,

appreciate a lot..

XOXOXO

with love, from blessed me..

boringness, the ingredient of my life especially when studying

hey,

i hv deserted my blog for long time..

wad to do? no time wad ;(

i m studying FA right now.. i think i have been addicting to FACEBOOK..not becoz i m loving it, it's becoz 'M-USED-TO".. it has became part of my life.. the thing that cannot be forgotten everything, like a rhyme ><

Godness... i need to make a change d!!!!

Officially, BYE BYE

feeling sad once i got to know Sheera, one of my classmate not going to continue her study with me for the rest of the routine...

so sad....

no longer a multiracial DAC 25...

(no car can be tumpang too, XD)

keberatan to say bye bye to her......

the ever first impression towards her is...

omg, she is juz alike with 杨怡(the hong kong star)

i love to KAP her in the class at the beginning...

gradually, v mixed up like salad, chit-chatting, joking, PD-ing..

wad a bad friend she is ;(

not even a word before she left~

some of us knew this news through others...

not even a BYE..

at least,

i can hav a hug, a picture with her..

haiz.........

sad...................

by the way,

take care my friend ;)

will call u out for gathering!

the most important, dun forget us!

Friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things.

with regards...

where is the dream, where am I =)

hoping against hope?!

oh no!

making a dream,

asking for dream,

rejected by dream.

haha!

my dream??

not really sure about tat.

erm..

modeling?

mom, " stop dreaming! dun play non sense! "

BF, "cannot! "

o.O

no dream anymore!

haha~

getting for another dream..

haha

a reachable dream.. by $

sharpen up my Eng!

wish to be a very good Eng Speaker+Writer,

with zero grammar, zero "ka-ka-ka" in speaking.

no longer needed ppl to check my essay,

instead, checking others' >.<

how shameless am I.... XD

20 July 2010

我真的累了。。。

他真的认定了我不会走。。。

或许是真的。。。

但，我真的很辛苦。。

每次骂架都是我错。。。

我真的很辛苦。。

最近的我真的一直为了他哭。。。

he takes me for granted...

haha... he said he din, but, he did..

feeling like being manipulated...

tired of playing mind game....

i lose becoz i love him so much,

u win, becoz u take me for granted..

i leave becoz i fall..

the first time, my mom saw me cried becoz of him..

stop being like tat...

it's over....

alwis blame tat i dun understand him..

did he?

ya, i m the one 宪家

当一个男朋友觉得你放太多的假设，

或许，

他和你已经不再爱着对方。

或许，

是嫌弃，不耐烦的开始。

我不需要你的同情，

不需要你的陪伴。

更不需要你的支持，

因为我要的，你并没能给。

不是不能。。。而是，厌倦。

体谅，

是我唯一不能给你的。

我目前最想知道的就是，他对我今天化妆的评语。。

我最想让他看到我美丽的一面。

但，我放弃了！

nice?

omg!

it's not so me!

juz back from school after enjoying the make-over with my friend, CP

haha..

n,

i hv 'occupied' GF's phone memory much!

haha~ thanks ya,

XXX

God has given you one face, and you make yourself another. ~William Shakespeare

emoing-psycoing-hating-pretending..

a formula derived from my life..

eventually, i realized my life is tat much meaningless.

to be pretending..

to be ignorant...

to be everything you wan me to be..

while losing the one-God-given..

everyday, striving for the same target..

"which step i need to take today"

"which subject i need to do"

"when exam will be there"

"how to inprove my ENG"

"WORK HARD TO BE A SCHOLAR"

i have been living for no point..

my life, my -ship, my studies,

all can be depicted by SUCK

ending my blog today,

"Almost every man wastes part of his life in attempts to display qualities which he does not possess, and to gain applause which he cannot keep. ~Samuel Johnson,The Rambler, 1750

- the ME

with regards.. XX

bloggie mood ;)

erm.......

yet.. ntg much can share!

juz feeling to write!

wad to write?

ntg..

haha~ from here,

derive a conclusion..

i m juz so 38 and boring!

ohya,

one thing to share!

will be hiking with my boyfrenz...

should i prepare a rope to pull him up?

or, maybe a kiss will do?

haha..

the most i sure is that,

BRiNG MORE TISSUE!

he will definitely be sweating cats and dogs!!

some sort of boringness in my blog, right?
especially the song..

" hey eh.. ehh ehh ehh ehh ehh...
your lipstick stains.........."

haha! wad i can do is juz to change the song~
even though i hope to express my life in a lively manner..
forgive me.. ;'(

so sad when i heard tat my bf dun like the couple shirt i bought 4 him. I had been choosing n deciding 4 at least half hour. So hurt after he said he dun wan wear it.

during the boring mid-9

doing smtg boring again,

STUDY n STUDY n STUDY n STUDY n STUDY

this word cant run away from my life unless i get the a little not-so-proud recognition by ACCA

how poor i m ;'(

can someone come and sayang me?

haiz.......

is it hard to finish ACCA paper?

all my friends : of coz!

so sad wei..

how can i, a wonk get through it without repetition or a long-breathed sigh?

haha~

touch wood touch wood!

no repeat! no repeat!

i love to curve myself indeed!

need to continue my study!

procrastination is alwis nvr a good idea in STUDY

see, now i deserved it!

toodle-oo!

sweet dream..

wif. love

I have grown up,,, it's time for me to carry on my own responsibilitis

finally,
i voice it out...........................
haiz....
i reminded myself to be silent...
but...
it seems to be useless..
i cant control myself...
maybe, i take things seriously......
i juz wan things to be good...
but, it's not a good excuse to let it goes.....
i knew tat.......
everthing might not be the same...
but, i am trying hard to maintain the same.....
btw, ...
i broke it.......
i broke my own promise..
is it the time for me to change a new environment?

everything will still move on even without a tiny ME...
maybe, better fluency..

my heart is somehow calm down right now compared to yesterday and the day b4..

my heart beat was fluctuating these 2 days as the bad luck was tied up with me no matter what i do, regardless of where i go...
it's one word "BAD"
haiz......
the day before yesterday,i broke my mom's cartoon magnet on the refrigerator...
was it a bad omen tat time but i was the one not realising?
hmm...
dunno la....
when, at the time, i felt like 'OMG' as the head to the cartoon, turtle was broken into 2!
i glued it up and went to bed...
am i superstitious??
but, sometimes, thing is going out of earth.... it's terrible!

at the same day,
i met all the bad things once in a lump sum!

i found tat i lost my watch when the exam was t to commence!
Baby-G, rm2xx
the first watch from my bf!
it's cute pinky watch!
*should i use "was" instead of 'is"?*
i knew that i cant answer the exam even i was sitting in front of the paper,
instead of sitting there and stare,
i chose to looking around even the exam started..
the only lucky thing was tat, C.K, my tutor, allowed me to do so!

after running n looking around juz like a lunatic,
i found nothing!
what to do?
going back with an empty soul!
but, i warned myself, test was still going on,
u need to finish it no matter how..
btw, i was juz answering the paper with tear rolling...
the bad luck did continued!
after all my friends passed up their exam paper,
oo!
back out!!!!!!
i was the only one sitting for the exam!
omg......GOD! do u see me? do u know i am sitting for exam?!! GOD, is it u r high-teaing?!!!
what to do?
cried badly afterall, in front of public, my class + group 26!
oh gosh, u were really high-teaing!
forget to send ur luck to me!
wad was going on then? i squatted down beside the door and finished up my questions with the mere sunlight!

btw, thanks u, my friends for comforting me, Pamely(lending me her light through her phone), and a girl from group 26(dunno who she is as my tear occupied my eyes fully)

is it, the day ended up peacefully ever after?
ho, u r definitely wrong!
my broke my spectacle!
wth!

okie, the first day story, done!

come to second day night!
i was quarrelling with my bf b4 we were about to go out!
juz after i changed my clothes,
my friend reminded me to send her a file!
opppppssss! ya ho!
then, i spent almost 20mins to send the file from my f's laptop!
during this 20mins, the live show of quarrel was on-air!
wth, he was non stop looking into his watch!
from tat, i know that he has another date!
when i asked him to fix his PC for me, he pressed the PC abruptly,
and spoke loud in front of my family SOFTLY!
wad the hell..
then, in car, another boom!
becoz of his temper, he ran the car n ended up,
hit a motor driver???!!!
the motor hit his car??!!
dunno la!
accident!
the motor driver was so fierce!
but, my bf more fierce!
the guy said 'okie, nvm! ntg!' angrily!
(dunno wad happened d....)
the shouted at me! even not the first time, but tis time, his voice is really scary!
i was freaked out!
who is the one beside me?
do i know him?
wad i did, crying again.......

my life--- crying

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