my holiday was just simple but awesome!

I went for a trip with Lee's Family, again!
what is different with the previous trip, Lee's father is not along because of working!
calling from Saudi to know what was the fun on the night of trip!
ohh, a poor daddy!

i was pampered by my boy all this while. blessing and feeling so sweet!
the sugar level is added on with the love from Lee's granny, mommy and brother.
it's just so nice! maybe, i am the only lil girl there.
hopefully, another girl will be brought along to enjoy together *bro, do add oil =P*

Lee's mommy bought me many things. food & cute cards.
Lee's bro treated me chocolate cake! oh, very nice! i love chocolate cake!
Lee? nothing at all... so sad...

even i studied nothing during holidays, i believe that the quality time spent worth everything.
love can never be replaced by the academics, career or even success. at least, i believe that.

i love Lee's family. they treated me true-heartedly as part of them, even i m nt their member =)
thanks for everything they gave.
i shall not forget them even if i broke with my boy. *touch wood x 100 times*

okie, finish blogging, prepare my presentation slides.

XOXO.

face tomorrow with a big big smile, i can do it =)

time flies.

Ya, time flies. Many happenings since 28th May.
Internship, trip and new born baby!
seems that i have been busying for the whole months.
with no fruits.

Internship, much demotivated me.
but, nvm. at least, i know where am i belonged to.

New born baby, niece.
Yes! my annoying princess. She is now just 5 days after fullmoon.
No Doubt, she brought me happiness, tiredness and restless!!!!
i have been lacking of sleep since her new coming! hmm... 35 days!
my room was occupied by her parents and i have to, sometimes, sleep with her in the living room or, sometimes, same bedroom! oh gosh, 8am class makes me scratching my head!
it's tiring.
i wasted most of my time for her after coming back from school. feeding. kept her accompanying and swinging.
no own time and study time.
i wonder how long i can escape myself from this kind of life.
not selfish, just.. not enough tolerance in me.
quarrel prevails, compared to mother's love.
mum was making trouble out of nothing.
It's okie for baby to be her priority, i understood, i dont mind.
did she ever think for me for one second? at least, just let me do what i prefer. but..
she kept asking me for something i couldnt tolerate.
managed to escape from this once in a while.
didnt even feel like coming back home after school. no matter how tired.

and, today.
bro was moving into the house opposite.
at least, i have my own space. hope so.
i have been busy taking care the lil princess after school with dead body.
been taking herbal medic for the passed weeks.
it's no good. but, i needed, need and shall need it.

stress, haunting me.
i need a breath.
how can i chase the time back?

不能磨灭的伤痕。

我哭了。
因为，我带着一辈子磨灭不掉的疤痕。
一辈子不能穿尝试。
一辈子都要担心。
一辈子都在意。

So far.. Regretting!

regret for not going UK to be with my boy, going thru his hardest time.
we were both believing that i could hv learnt new things, gain new experience and knowledge from my internship.
so far.. what i hv learnt were all general administration.
it doesnt mean i learn ntg. but.. it's juz totally different from what i had been expecting.
the reason i alwis got, "it's off peak, u came for the wrong timing".
extremely fine. im getting used to it!

what i dislike the most..
being neglected by the others.. but it's better than being 'watched' by the others.
i hardly suited myself in a strange and new environment.
everything i did seems like being criticized by my leader. Am i being too sensitive?
maybe, there are errors in those things i did.
my confidence lvl, drops. drastically.

i m comforting myself, nvm. juz stay in the office and wait for the allowance. even i hv learnt ntg.
despaired. depressed. sooooooooo miserable.
will tomorrow be better? sigh........................................................

Emotionally: I'm done, Mentally: I'm drained. Spiritually: I feel dead, Physically: I smile. 

everything after exam

yeoh!! finals were finally over... one week ago! haha! the excitement, well, nvr ends!

what was going on after my very-bloody-stress finals?

LANGKAWI!

one symbolized photo is enough, i believe *in fact, i m lazy =P*

i would like to summarize the entertainments we had there! juz a brief one becoz i am going to hit the hack!
These are the things we did! swimming, island visiting, beach, eagle watching, monkey, pregnancy island!!
 
drink drank drunk! the climax, i couldn't skip this part!
someone was drunk, acting weird.
someone wasn't, but behaving like drunk!
conclusion, there is always interesting human being!

one of my friend.. laughing like a witch when he was drunk! seems like someone else was inside his body.
the first question i asked the rest, would he kill us? o.O i dun wanna die!!!
this is not the funniest part, he went for a night dash without noticing anyone of us!
opened the door and RUN! gosh!!! it was 3am!
great, we were all awake!
we girls, waiting for the boys to catch him back!
i was wondering whether he knew what he was doing actually!

the rest of the activities, SKIP

i wanted to share the feeling of the trip.
it's fun and i do had a blast!
i met new friend and i know my old friend even better!
it's good sometimes.. but not all times.
when v know someone even deeper.. might find it even harder to mingle.
a trip. a group of ppl. of course, there is sometimes argument. it's okie! as long as v are okie ever after!

after Langkawi, my shopping session!!!
until today, i din even stay at home for more than 6hours besides of sleeping times!
One Utama, Midvalley(day1), KLCC(day2), Midvalley(day3) again!
my mom nearly killed me!
i was busy buying my formal attired as my internship starts tomorrow! the formal jacket costs me pennies!!!
at the end, i managed to get a jacket even it's not really nice. but it's worth!

my new journey will start tml. can u guys bless me?
i hope i will not act like a stupid and not to have mistakesssssssssssss!

Good night, peeps. XOXO

A new leaf, perhaps.

God.. i please u.. i really need ur help.. plz be with me and blessing me....

i did extremely bad in my exam paper today..
the very first time i feel so helpless. seeing the time passing.. doing ntg to help my paper.
seeing the second petal.. the min petal.. moving.. with blank mind.
crying, with no tear. i need a shoulder perhaps.
for me to keep crying.. for me to release my sadness.

i swear.. i swear..
i will be studying harder next time. studying better!
i wan to be the top 10 in Tax paper, P6 Advanced Tax..
it's hard for me to face failure..
especially for me, myself to admit i am loser in my academy.
i swear, i will be performing better and better.
the way of study in Diploma is no longer working.
i will be the new me, trust me.

i swear. i swear.

when things went wrong..

oh gosh, my dashboard is changed! what's wrong!
by the way, this is nt the main concern now.

something really pissed me off.
it makes me feel like - stop indulging in ur 'sympathetic wonderland' -
it's fucking annoying.
stop being so augmentative whenever im talking to u.
terribly tiring rendering laziness. not becoz of i dun care!
u came to pick the fight. okie, i accepted ur challenge. but, do accept the consequences, PLZ.  
at the time u can no longer stand for the consequences, u started blaming.
started ur very own world Merry Go Round.
oh, i m the one being blamed.
sorry, u picked the fight and ur sympathetic look is now rejected. do pass me another proposal.

oh ya, my mom told me to get away myself from a non-moral human being. Yes, i do!
so, girl, dun come and poke me once and once again!
especially when i hv made known every disgusting facts on u.

world turn brighter right now. anger vented ^^

im not a pure angel.
i have my anger, temper and fucking characteristics.
I admitted that. ntg to be hidden - IM HUMAN -