不能磨灭的伤痕。

我哭了。
因为，我带着一辈子磨灭不掉的疤痕。
一辈子不能穿尝试。
一辈子都要担心。
一辈子都在意。

So far.. Regretting!

regret for not going UK to be with my boy, going thru his hardest time.
we were both believing that i could hv learnt new things, gain new experience and knowledge from my internship.
so far.. what i hv learnt were all general administration.
it doesnt mean i learn ntg. but.. it's juz totally different from what i had been expecting.
the reason i alwis got, "it's off peak, u came for the wrong timing".
extremely fine. im getting used to it!

what i dislike the most..
being neglected by the others.. but it's better than being 'watched' by the others.
i hardly suited myself in a strange and new environment.
everything i did seems like being criticized by my leader. Am i being too sensitive?
maybe, there are errors in those things i did.
my confidence lvl, drops. drastically.

i m comforting myself, nvm. juz stay in the office and wait for the allowance. even i hv learnt ntg.
despaired. depressed. sooooooooo miserable.
will tomorrow be better? sigh........................................................

Emotionally: I'm done, Mentally: I'm drained. Spiritually: I feel dead, Physically: I smile. 

everything after exam

yeoh!! finals were finally over... one week ago! haha! the excitement, well, nvr ends!

what was going on after my very-bloody-stress finals?

LANGKAWI!

one symbolized photo is enough, i believe *in fact, i m lazy =P*

i would like to summarize the entertainments we had there! juz a brief one becoz i am going to hit the hack!
These are the things we did! swimming, island visiting, beach, eagle watching, monkey, pregnancy island!!
 
drink drank drunk! the climax, i couldn't skip this part!
someone was drunk, acting weird.
someone wasn't, but behaving like drunk!
conclusion, there is always interesting human being!

one of my friend.. laughing like a witch when he was drunk! seems like someone else was inside his body.
the first question i asked the rest, would he kill us? o.O i dun wanna die!!!
this is not the funniest part, he went for a night dash without noticing anyone of us!
opened the door and RUN! gosh!!! it was 3am!
great, we were all awake!
we girls, waiting for the boys to catch him back!
i was wondering whether he knew what he was doing actually!

the rest of the activities, SKIP

i wanted to share the feeling of the trip.
it's fun and i do had a blast!
i met new friend and i know my old friend even better!
it's good sometimes.. but not all times.
when v know someone even deeper.. might find it even harder to mingle.
a trip. a group of ppl. of course, there is sometimes argument. it's okie! as long as v are okie ever after!

after Langkawi, my shopping session!!!
until today, i din even stay at home for more than 6hours besides of sleeping times!
One Utama, Midvalley(day1), KLCC(day2), Midvalley(day3) again!
my mom nearly killed me!
i was busy buying my formal attired as my internship starts tomorrow! the formal jacket costs me pennies!!!
at the end, i managed to get a jacket even it's not really nice. but it's worth!

my new journey will start tml. can u guys bless me?
i hope i will not act like a stupid and not to have mistakesssssssssssss!

Good night, peeps. XOXO

A new leaf, perhaps.

God.. i please u.. i really need ur help.. plz be with me and blessing me....

i did extremely bad in my exam paper today..
the very first time i feel so helpless. seeing the time passing.. doing ntg to help my paper.
seeing the second petal.. the min petal.. moving.. with blank mind.
crying, with no tear. i need a shoulder perhaps.
for me to keep crying.. for me to release my sadness.

i swear.. i swear..
i will be studying harder next time. studying better!
i wan to be the top 10 in Tax paper, P6 Advanced Tax..
it's hard for me to face failure..
especially for me, myself to admit i am loser in my academy.
i swear, i will be performing better and better.
the way of study in Diploma is no longer working.
i will be the new me, trust me.

i swear. i swear.

when things went wrong..

oh gosh, my dashboard is changed! what's wrong!
by the way, this is nt the main concern now.

something really pissed me off.
it makes me feel like - stop indulging in ur 'sympathetic wonderland' -
it's fucking annoying.
stop being so augmentative whenever im talking to u.
terribly tiring rendering laziness. not becoz of i dun care!
u came to pick the fight. okie, i accepted ur challenge. but, do accept the consequences, PLZ.  
at the time u can no longer stand for the consequences, u started blaming.
started ur very own world Merry Go Round.
oh, i m the one being blamed.
sorry, u picked the fight and ur sympathetic look is now rejected. do pass me another proposal.

oh ya, my mom told me to get away myself from a non-moral human being. Yes, i do!
so, girl, dun come and poke me once and once again!
especially when i hv made known every disgusting facts on u.

world turn brighter right now. anger vented ^^

im not a pure angel.
i have my anger, temper and fucking characteristics.
I admitted that. ntg to be hidden - IM HUMAN -

与你一起的。七年又十五天

七年，看似很漫长。

其实，我们在一起的日子，就只是7/2=3.5-0.5=3-1.5=1.5年！

很复杂的方程式！

/2，因为你出国了四五年;

-0.5, 因为我们分开了半年；

-1.5，因为不被父母认同的那段时间，我们很少很少见面。

所以，总的来说，我们只是一起一年半的时间而已啦！

还是热恋期 ;)

我很羡慕别的情侣，

手牵手约会去，

搂着看戏，

撑着一把伞，

一起逛街，选衣服，吃东西。

最主要的，一起过节。

生日，周年纪念，情人节。

统统，没我分！！！

有啦，庆祝过3年的纪念日。

可是，我不满足！

所以，我很讨厌那些情侣有机会出去，

他们竟然浪费掉！！！

他们还真是不知福！

有时候，听着别的女生说：我的男朋友来载我。

真的让我很羡慕！

别说载我去玩，

一年内，我们只有在同一个国家三个月。

但，不同州属

可悲。。。

可能，这就是让我们更珍惜对方的原因。

每一天晚上，我们都会谈天。

半小时或一小时。

初时，更是3小时。

真佩服我自己！

他刚出国时的一个月，我们还是保持着这个习惯。

结果。。。电话费真的是几个数字。

我怕了。减少了讲话次数。增加了网络视频的次数

。

毕竟，我们还是学生。

时差问题，更让我们头痛。

直到数月前，我们都有了职能手机，

真的超方便！

可是，我还是会忘记了他的存在！

常忘记回他的信息！哈哈！

。。。

虽然没有你在身边，

我有时会很闷。

但是，你又何尝不是体验着相同的感受。

所以，我不怪你。

反而，谢谢你七年来的陪伴，忍受着我的任性。

你也要谢谢我，

因为我没有不甘寂寞，

选择别的男生！！！！

这是重点 XP

很多年前的我们

女人。该有的矜持呢？

女生，请你疼爱自己。

女生，请你保护自己。

女生，请你反省自己。

女生，请你活出自己。

请你留住该有的矜持，

因为，我们不是没有男人而活不下去，

更不是男人的

。待办实录。

。闹钟。

。保姆。

更不是男人的跟班。